I was overjoyed when I receive my PTK examinations result from the clerk when I went back to school for my official duty on the 1st of December. I opened my results slip and saw the list stating Aras IV and of course, I was so excited but the clerk then warned me of the Biro Tatanegara course I have yet to attend. I have actually applied ever since 2007 but God knows why the application was not in till 2009!! This shows just how "efficient" the people sitting in there can be!

Then came the question of when can I attend my BTN course and as usual, I was asked to enquire and I did... the line was always busy and when I finally got them today, I was asked to refer to the latest Pekeliling 13/2010 which states the results of PTK are void starting 1st Jan 2010!! WHAT the hell is wrong?? I am terribly mad now as the entire thing just doesnt make any sense at all!! I called up again and clarify with the BTN staffs again only to know that if i have not attended BTN and even if I've got aras IV in my PTK, it aint going to make any differences! Anyway, the BTN course is not for us to decide when to attend but Selangor state for some stupid reasons has always had delays in calling the teachers for all these pre-requisite courses! And mine was delayed till now, though the application was already officially in by 2009!

You know what, I really, really regret studying so hard now, I think I need to really overcome the sorrow that I am in now,,, What kind of policies are these... just because everyone wants something NEW, when the policies are done, it just changes without considering the others... and I am the few UNLUCKY ones...

Well, looks like i am just giving up on working harder... :) coz at the end of the day, there's just so much nonsense which changes all the effort! Damn it!

I was going through hell for the past few days... listening to grumpy people talking and just sitting there, listening to all the stupid stories I've to endure... and I felt so down after that, went to look for Edwin, really sat down, poured everything out and felt so so much better after that. Who says I'm strong? Outwardly, yes... but I am not afterall... If only I could cry out loud... but I always remind myself to be strong and never cry easily... NEVER let those tears flow so quickly, tuck them all under my eyes... but I was really in hell...

Finally yesterday was not too bad... Had the technician from Alpha to come and repair my faulty heater and then ushhhhhhh I went with Emily to Star Publication's Hi-Tea @ Federal Hotel. It was a good one... ahahaha we even stopped at Bake with Yen to purchase some cake baking supplies... it was awesome! Then we had clinique stuffs in the goodie bag, not too bad, huh? Came back, very exhausted, yes I know... and then watched my favourite hokkien drama and then did some painting work, cleaned the toilet, oh i'm just so satisfied!!!

Just gonna wait for my Lorenzo tv Cabinet to come... longing for one for sooo long... finally I could save enough to purchase it... hehe... happy for that reason...

It's been so long since I blogged, but indeed, I feel I have no one to talk to or is it because i whine too much? I try to do so much in such little time... I guess it is due to the post-moving-house depression... haha... Well, I was quite stressed up during the renovation pocess (the cash flow, the getting-out-of-offfice thingy, and worst of all, the patching up of things) When everything's finally done (Thank God, my kitchen cab, wardrobe, plaster ceiling and wiring are all done) and started to buy my electrical appliances SLOWLY... haha... Hmm... So I bought a 9.5kg LG washing machine (was quite sceptical bout it's size), a LCD tv (it was a 37'" but i think i like it!), a Tosshiba black glass mirror fridge and I finally got my mattress! I bought a King Koil but I have yet to get my bed frame. Was scouting in IKEA but I guess it;s a no-no... not too stable. Nevermind, I shall just continue to scout around...

Went to Numbawan in old klang road to have the so-called nice western food.Anyone thinking of going there, FORGET IT! It was my first and will be my last time there. The waiting time was killing, it took 2 hours! and the management was BAD! I'd rather go to 6 to 10 in Section 17 or Betty's Midwest Kitchen. They are both awesome!

And so my Birthday celeb started with the girls celebrating with me @ bangsar then Edwin surprisingly gave me a set of Eternity Moment which I was holding back to buy all these while... Thanks Darling! You know how I feel right?

Wow... time really flies... and I didn't know what got me into the accident last Thursday and KEPOOOFFFFFFFF RM640 gone! that's also without the spray-painting yet... So sad... So sooooo sad... to add on to the sadness, I managed to search for KUL-INC flight this November holidays but then... I delayed and when I checked again today..no more that price anymore... SAD sad...

Well, I really want a holiday retreat...... badly.....

Wow... Another month has passed... House renovation is still on the going, but i'm glad the plaster ceiling and wiring are all done up. Went around searching for lights and am really really looking forward to gear up on the painting work this weekend.

Was in Ipoh over the weekend, went around with mom, dad, sis and Raymond. Had a great 3 days in Ipoh, though it's only over the weekend, you'll be soooo relaxed and just care less bout everything. It's just so good to be out of the hussle and bustle of city life... hehe

Officially declaring myself being single again after being soooooooo tired of the relationship.

I don't know why but the reason i've blogged so much lesser was because I had him to turn to. But it seems ssoooooooo long and sooooo far that we are apart (our soul no longer speak to each other) and I sense that I'm not the kind of girl he desire to be with... WHO AM I to speak? I'm just an ordinary big fat ugly pig who is just so dumb to ever trust a man again in my life...

I cried, I really did cried in school... knowing that there will be no and I mean it, NO future for us both... I don't see the future... When he got the interview, I tried to ask and see what was his priority should the result turn out positive:

He gave me 2 definite answers: First:- a house, Second:- an Audi which he's always wanted... I WAS NOT in the picture at aLL!!! So where do I stand now?? Tell ME! where do I stand in his heart??? No where....

NO WHERE when I got to know he added the bitch into his FB account... Why would u bother adding if that person is no one to you?? Hack it... It's either me or her... not both! I'm sick of 3rd party!

From today on, I'll never give in again to any man!! NO MORE! I trust no man, but only me, MYSELF and I...

I shall never trust any man anymore in my entire life!!!

Hie all,
I'm so glad I'm finally getting the keys to my new place! I was so so excited and I think everyone are excited on my behalf too... Ed and his family came by the afternoon I got the keys and we went looking at the place, giving suggestions on what to do, to renovate and etc. We then went for a movie in Pavilion, can you imagine, the 8 of us, Ed's parents, Wendy, Edward, the two little girls and the two of us went in and we had a great dinner at Dragon-I Signature... haha... So glad everything's been good with us... can't wait for mom and dad come and see my place! I'm just so busy with getting quotations and I believe my fellow colleagues would understand and share the excitement as I do right now... Will update again! Adios!

Happy happy New Year!!

2009 has passed, and 2010 is here! With the new year around, new resolutions and new aims in the new year. I should be happy since i've not been blogging for quite a while, that shows just how busy i am. Or rather, how contented i am to my life that i need not blog to sigh and to whine bout it.

it's the 2nd day of the year, managed to meet mom and dad last night over dinner, caught up with cheryl and evonne the other day and again cheryl and terri in Skybar last night. Was a slow start for the year, having so much headache with my time management, having so much to do, time tables come clashing and etc.

Sometimes, i wish i have lesser aims in life... but a person without an aim, it's just like a feather in the air...

gotta keep going with my work

Wow... another blog? So quick and I'm blogging again? Hmm... too bored with my work,  guess... Hehe... went for UP in 3D last night after dinner over at Ed's place. Yeah, I guess we just love Pavillion's GSC above the rest. Went over to Emily's in the afternoon for cupcake baking session and the best part was: she taught me to do creaming! It was fun but you gotta be really creative in order to come out with real nice ones... I am starting to feel so much into baking and probably should invest some stuffs for baking. Hehe...

Watching Burning Flame III and I just love how Kevin Cheng and Myolie Wu paired up in this series. The love that blossomed between the two of them was so sweet... but I heard that the ending is not too good... what a waste...

I'm missing Ed so much... though it was only a few hours ago that I saw him but it seems so so long... I'm missing you so much......